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coping skills PhD Life work

new chapter

Finished! I finished my dissertation. I finished my phd program. at the end of this journey was an unexpected sense of drop, a sense of fall, or a loss, letting go all of a sudden of a goal I had worked towards intensely for the past six years. As much as pushing towards finish line […]

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coping skills PhD Life

a good enough dissertation

I have a defense draft of dissertation! I consider it a “good enough” dissertation, as in Winnicott’s concept of a “good enough mother.” I don’t mean that my dissertation isn’t good. I just mean that I did my best not being a perfectionist and practically speaking it’s better than a perfect draft of a dissertation […]

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coping skills health weight loss

rule following vs decision making and weight loss

I wanted to be done with weight loss. But I started gaining weight after reaching my goal weight! Maintaining weight is hard. It’s almost easier to be perpetually trying to lose weight, if that makes any sense at all. I am listening to this podcast on rule following vs decision making. I feel like I […]

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anxiety coping skills health

dizziness not vertigo

I have been experiencing dizziness – not vertigo – during the past month or so. It’s really quite frustrating and limiting in ways I can live my life! When I get dizzy, it lasts few hours and sometimes happens consecutive days for few days, but not continuously. So I have gone to my primary care […]

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anxiety coping skills PhD Life

the difference between i can’t do it and i can do it

Most of last week, I felt overwhelmed and thought to myself I can’t do it. I had a sermon and a chapter of my dissertation both due on Thursday of last week. On Monday at noon, I got a call to schedule an interview for that day, had the interview and got hired later in […]