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PhD Life reflections

uncertainties

uncertainties in life are difficult to manage. as long as I was working towards getting my PhD I always knew what I had to do next and then after that and then after that. Ever since turning in my defended, revised final draft of dissertation, I am a bit at a loss what to do. […]

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coping skills PhD Life work

new chapter

Finished! I finished my dissertation. I finished my phd program. at the end of this journey was an unexpected sense of drop, a sense of fall, or a loss, letting go all of a sudden of a goal I had worked towards intensely for the past six years. As much as pushing towards finish line […]

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academic PhD Life reflections theology

pre-defense reflections

I feel so thankful for getting to write my dissertation on trauma and also for the defense that is scheduled for tomorrow. I am feeling thankful that the defense is tomorrow, and also thankful as if I already passed my defense even though it hasn’t happened yet. Over the weekend, I was feeling dizzy, which […]

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political reflections theology

imagine, dream, hope

I am teaching Ethics this semester. We are discussing equality and discrimination this week. I couldn’t have planned in advance that on Tuesday of this week, Derek Chauvin’s jury would reach their verdict, and as we were awaiting the verdict, Ma’Khia Bryant, who was 16 years old, was killed by police before the announcement of […]

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academic PhD Life reflections work

the gift of pausing

On weekends, sometimes just Sunday some times Saturday and Sunday, I take a break from writing my dissertation. When you have been writing and thinking about something, in my case theology of traumatic affect, taking a break from it feels so strange! I started taking weekends off from writing when I noticed I was not […]