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PhD Life reflections

uncertainties

uncertainties in life are difficult to manage. as long as I was working towards getting my PhD I always knew what I had to do next and then after that and then after that. Ever since turning in my defended, revised final draft of dissertation, I am a bit at a loss what to do. […]

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coping skills PhD Life work

new chapter

Finished! I finished my dissertation. I finished my phd program. at the end of this journey was an unexpected sense of drop, a sense of fall, or a loss, letting go all of a sudden of a goal I had worked towards intensely for the past six years. As much as pushing towards finish line […]

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academic PhD Life reflections theology

pre-defense reflections

I feel so thankful for getting to write my dissertation on trauma and also for the defense that is scheduled for tomorrow. I am feeling thankful that the defense is tomorrow, and also thankful as if I already passed my defense even though it hasn’t happened yet. Over the weekend, I was feeling dizzy, which […]

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academic faith PhD Life

Dissertation defense preparation reflections – 20210627

People share all kinds of feelings and thoughts on social media. But I have not come across how one feels on the days leading up to a dissertation defense. Past couple days I have been feeling dizzy and also somewhat paralyzed. Overwhelmed with having gotten here? Joy and happiness? My dissertation defense is 3 days […]

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coping skills PhD Life

a good enough dissertation

I have a defense draft of dissertation! I consider it a “good enough” dissertation, as in Winnicott’s concept of a “good enough mother.” I don’t mean that my dissertation isn’t good. I just mean that I did my best not being a perfectionist and practically speaking it’s better than a perfect draft of a dissertation […]